Not feeling great lately. Pushing myself to do stuff not because i want to (it’s because i have to). As a result, I’m a bit behind work and school.  Hope it’s just a phase though. Need to kick myself in the a**.  Kept reminding myself to do one step at a time, and that before you know it, it’s done.

Guess i’m having a slight case of mild burn-out. Mindtools says, according to their “burn-out online test,” i got a score of 45 and that I’m “at risk.”

The Science of Burn-Out:

Burn-out could be caused by different reasons: exhaustion (physical and emotional), diminished interest, or depersonalization/cynicism.  (Info source: wikipedia) I guess I’m just exhausted from meeting deadlines and the stress brought about by such.  I think my experience from undergoing my recently-concluded practicum is now taking its toll on me–physically and emotionally.  Before, it was “rah-rah-rah!” But now that it’s done, I’m like: “don’t care…leave me alone.”

(Based on my experience, I just like to add that burn-out can be accompanied with a sense of ‘purposelessness’… Times like these, I often ask myself, “What’s the point?” If there is none [and even if there is, you just don’t WANT to see it], it’s hard to wake up, face the day and go through all the usual routine.)

To recover, one suggestion that I’m keeping in mind is to use burnout as a trigger for personal growth:

This is probably one of the most positive ways that people manage burnout: By using it as a wakeup call to re-evaluate the way they want to live their lives and what they want to achieve.

The site suggests that in order to do this…you should:

  • “…understand why you are burning out.” Ok did that already. Next.
  • Move on and evaluate your goals…Self-Reflect. Right…
  • Then, redirect or change your direction to reach those new (or same) goals.” … Goals are seen as the exit if you’re stuck in a maze (or a rut) and can’t get out. It is like bringing back that sense of purpose that you lost along the way (which is basically to get out of the damned maze!) Ok, got it. Thanks.

I would like to add one tip though: And if you have accomplished your goals, give yourself a reward for a getting yourself out of the rut! (I’m smiling now as I’m thinking of MY reward)

That and chanting a personal mantra can help, too, I guess…   one step at a time… one step at a time… one step at a time…

Advertisements

I have been so busy and more scatterbrained lately (or is it ‘scattered-brain’?).  I just can’t wait for this trimester to end.  Juggling work, studies, practicum, and other duties is real hard…so hard that I forget things that I have to do, misplaced important items, got left out in some gimmicks, and had been missing my favorite shows and some movies that came and went (like ‘Mamamia’)…sob 😦

However, I will definitely NOT miss the following shows (come hell or high water!)…

“wall-e” will finally be shown here on Aug. 13…why so late? WHYYY?

Project Runway Philippines on ETC/SBN 21, Wednesdays at 10?

Did it start already? …Aaargh! I missed the first episode!!! I don’t watch reality shows much but if it is about REAL creativity and talent…then this show will give it to you! No one will be able to fake it…it’s either you’re in or out, alright.  (pic courtesy of ETC)

Watching out for ‘Watchmen’ in March, 2009

I don’t know anything about the comic book series…but I saw the trailer and heard a lot of buzz about it. Looks real good so far…

I better note them all down in my planner now…um, if I can only remember where I placed it, that is…

My practicum class just had a culminating activity for our Community Service project last July 26.  It was a memorable experience for all of us.

The site was the Gawad Kalinga (GK) Onyx, San Andres Bukid, Manila. Gawad Kalinga, which means “to give care,” is a movement that was first started out by Couples For Christ.  It aims to bring out the best in the Filipino spirit by promoting unity, cooperation, sharing, and generosity which are all embodied in our “bayanihan” values.

GK has many projects, including community-building.  My classmates and I were at the Onyx site for their Child and Youth Development Program (CYDP) which provides education and assistance for the Filipino disadvantaged youth.  It has three programs, namely: SIBOL (“grow”) for pre-school children, aged 3 to 6 years old; SAGIP (“to save a life”) for elementary aged children, from 7 to 13 years old; and SIGA (“to light up”) for teens aged 14 to 17 years old.  Their programs include value-based education, free academic tutorials, sports and creative workshops, counselling and rehabilitation program, and scholarships for those with the mental aptitude to pursue higher education.

Mr. Raul Ramiterre, of the GK-CYD Program and our practicum supervisor, Dr. Bautista (right)

The children, teens, and teachers had a great time.  They took part in the games, and received gifts and prizes.  They performed as well–singing, dancing and rapping their own original GK theme songs.  Some of the kids were talented and creative.  We all had fun and enjoyed ourselves immensely!

“Salamat sa mga ate at kuya…di n’yo kami pinapabayaan…” SIGA teens, rapping and singing from the heart. Bravos!

SAGIP kids: Promoting core values of pro-God,pro-country, and pro-humanity

“So long as the children are allowed to suffer, there is no true love in this world.” -Isadore Duncan

“For in the final analysis, our most basic common link, is that we all inhabit this small planet, we all breathe the same air, we all cherish our children’s futures, and we are all mortal.” – John F. Kennedy

It was heartwarming to see the children bringing along their younger siblings, and the older teens assuming leadership roles by guiding and leading the younger ones during the program.  These kids are forced to grow up fast, and take in big responsibilities at a young age.

Teen Role Models (right): Kuya Joel and Ate Aileen (with the dimples) can make promising future leaders if given the chance to pursue higher education through scholarships.

Educate your children to self-control, to the habit of holding passion and prejudice and evil tendencies subject to an upright and reasoning will, and you have done much to abolish misery from their future and crimes from society.” -Benjamin Franklin

If you want to help out, donate or volunteer your services, click on the Gawad Kalinga website for more information.  Wherever you are in the Philippines, there may be a GK site near you. Be a GK Bayani and make a stand against poverty…Less for self, More for others, Enough for all!

Scattershot. Now, that’s one word I learned today. According to the Collins Essential English Dictionary (2nd Edition 2006 © HarperCollins Publishers 2004, 2006), scattershot means “wide-ranging but indiscriminate” as in a scattershot approach to conversation. If I have to visualize it, this word probably came about when a long time ago, a reckless and impulsive hunter liked to fire indiscriminately at all directions hoping to hit his target regardless of whatever or whomever he shoots at…hence scattershot. Hmmm, he probably must have had a hunting party of one.

Anyway, I got this word from an article of Maggie Jackson who has a column at the Boston Globe, “Balancing Acts.” In her column, Jackson talks about the need to narrow down our scattershot world into a more focused and insightful existence; the value of balancing our work and private lives; the social impact of technology on our lives; and the importance of family life, focus and paying attention.

Working with children (as well as adults) with ADHD for a number of years gave me a lot of insights as to how attention (or the lack of it) can make a huge impact in our lives–emotionally, physically, spiritually, and mentally. It has become a topic of great interest to me that I figure that this so-called science of attention should really be given, well…more attention.

According to Jackson:

The ability to pay careful attention isn’t important just for students and air traffic controllers. Researchers are finding that attention is crucial to a host of other, sometimes surprising, life skills: the ability to sort through conflicting evidence, to connect more deeply with other people, and even to develop a conscience.

Before I read her article, I just gave a talk about this recently with a group of my co-teachers, emphasizing the need for attention-management training and that it should be a part of every school’s curriculum, even starting them young as in preschool-young. I also voiced out the need for more uni-tasking and lessening of multi-tasking but in this fast-paced, profit-driven, get-your-fix-at-the-click-of-a-button world (of which I am also guilty of), who will listen to me?

Jackson is calling out for a “renaissance of attention.” Attention training can make children grow up to be reflective thinkers, and better life-decision makers. I agree when she also said that we as adults should serve as role models as well–and not offer our kids a land of distraction but a land of less TV and more reading and quiet contemplation. She cited experts who say that attention-training is “critical” as well as an “exciting” thing; and with good attentional control, one can “do more than just pay attention to someone speaking at a lecture…(one) can control (one’s) cognitive processes, emotions,” and have better articulation of one’s own actions.

Imagine a “renaissance of attention…” I’m excited about being a part of it (actually, I’m excited about being a part of a renaissance of anything)! And as an educator, I can even actually DO something to help make this happen. Do you feel the excitement, too…um…hello…you’re still there? Sigh…

One year older again…oh, dear!

Can’t groan about that. It happens and so better live with it. And how can I possibly get upset when good friends at work “secretly” gave me a wonderful birthday surprise last June 13? Hey, I could hear you a mile away whispering about it behind my back, guys…hehe.

My birthday treat: squid pancit, yummy barbeque (courtesy of donna) marinated overnight in Mama Sita’s BBQ marinade sauce (ssshhh! that’s our secret ingredient!), my favorite elbow macaroni soup, ever-present country-style iced tea plus birthday cupcakes with pink candles.

The A Girls serving up the simple feast…

We love to eat pero ano ‘to? Busog na?…kain pa!

I’ve been working with the A Girls for a number of years. Some new, some old. Some have gone, others have stayed. But one thing that sets us apart from others are our camaraderie and support that know no bounds especially in these times. I’m proud to be a part of them… “A GIRL” FOREVER!!!

The A Girls also gave me a funny Warholesque shirt with the many faces of the late Rene Requiestas in front. Thanks!!! Whenever i look at it, I could actually hear Rene’s voice, saying, “Cheeta-eh! Ganda Lalake! Heeheehee…

They know I love wearing shirts and that I grew up as a child of the 80’s. Hmm, I would also prefer having a t-shirt showing beloved comedian Chiquito in front. I miss him…I wonder where i could get one? I googled him up today and none of the sites carry even a picture of him…WHY? I mean, c’mon…someone put up a site for Weng Weng, for crying out loud! Why not Chiquito?

Oh, well. Maybe those could be my next birthday wishes for next year…a Chiquito t-shirt plus due recognition for a late great Filipino comic.

Here’s to another great year for me, i hope! Cheers! Heeheeeheee!!